Letters to my ex
~pure art of fiction
I know I’m to blame I must be insane
Drawn to you
Drawn to the pain
Like a moth to a flame.
I was the sacrifice in your selfish game
Even though I vowed to never be that stupid again.
Was it men you hated?
A false woman you painted
Was it to settle a score?
Was it that I wasn’t your ex
because i was blinded by what i never saw Nothing I did was enough
to make you see that to me your respect means so much
Respect meaning honesty
Respect meaning integrity
Respect meaning compassion
Respect meaning sincerity.
Even though doubt was there,
if we could have a baby
There was no care if you were my lady
Should have warned that you live so shady
To be the one who was by my side
Who promised to be my forever bride.
you just didn’t care
But the shit didn’t stop,
You’d throw away all honor,
when I was wasn’t there.
I’d hear your excuses, your charm and your wit
But you never meant a single word of it.
All you knew was how to pacify my pride I feel so damn stupid,
I was hungry for every lie.
Even going on holiday with. another guy.
I even accepted you crossing
the world To see me one damn day out of five
You wanted it so now I’ve snapped
Now it’s time to take my time back
Now it’s time to take my calls back
Now it’s time to take my Vows back
And now it’s time to grow my balls back.
You claim you never said what you said
Be thankful I don’t get my Iraqi to Baghdad you upside your head.
Because your excuses flat on their arse
The insta pages showed you were nothing but a farce
You’re free to do whatever you want
With your fake smile you can no longer taunt.
You can’t undress to get my attention
I only wanted love and affection. Save that shit for another guy
One who doesn’t care if you live or die One who says flaunt what you have
One who cheats, oh wait that you’ve already had
I’m not your dad, I can’t teach you respect
How to dress your age, showing all your breast.
I wanted a woman who would protect my heart
Not stab the shit out of it, which was your only part.
You broke a man who was devoted to the core
You’re the stupid one
because I am no more.
Yea I heard the way you came back begging
To meet, to talk — or whatever else you were selling
But you met a new me who didn’t give a fuck
Because I was tired of being that loyal scmuck.
Loyal to you and loyal to us
Sadly one way traffic isn’t enough.
You heard a voice so damn cold
Damn fucking right,
your shit sounds old.
Just know you said I couldn’t find better,
A better liar than you? No never
It’s easy to replace
what you never had
If you do have a kid, you won’t find a better dad
But who cares you’re not my problem anymore
You played a shit game,
just look at the score.
You put yourself out there like some raggedy meat.
Yea I won’t lie you were the hottest woman in the street.
But you were everyone’s girl
with the way they stared.
You wanted it though, my feelings laid bare.
I’ll find better,
I’ve let memories burn
You never wanted love,
you never wanted marriage.
You wanted to stay selfish- I just had a turn.
